by alison | Aug 25, 2019 | Uncategorized
When we experience a loss, whether it’s the loss of a person to death, disease, divorce or breakup, the loss of a job or business to downsizing or an economic downturn, or the loss of a place to a move or foreclosure, it is not usually by choice. We have little...
by alison | May 29, 2018 | Uncategorized
Dealing with stuff after the death of a loved one is overwhelming – all the hopes and dreams of a life together, all the decisions you will now make alone, in the midst of your grieving, seem impossible. David left his 500 square foot studio filled with easels,...
by alison | Nov 20, 2017 | Uncategorized
Listening to Waves Listening to waves, the moon calls me and the blood of my womb answers, Although I no longer bleed. Emotions surge, drift, toss. Lifting small creatures from the sea floor, Snails, sea urchins, seaweed, sea slugs. No choice, taken, seized, only to...
by alison | Nov 16, 2017 | Uncategorized
I had the idea that my life would be easier once I got through my 1st year without David. So I toughed it out through the summer where there were no specific landmark days but I couldn’t go to Maine because there were a million memories of him painting, of...
by alison | Jul 21, 2017 | Uncategorized
Down by the East River, Blown by the Wind I am often asked why I chose to call myself bad widow. It’s astonishing to me how often people vehemently object to it. And even tell me that bad widow will have consequences, even lead to misunderstandings which could...
by alison | Jun 20, 2017 | Uncategorized
A loss like mine has many layers, not all of them obvious. I was married to David Beynon Pena for almost twenty years, nearly half my life. I lost my beloved husband to terminal cancer after fighting for his life for eleven months. Cancer is everywhere. ONE –...
